1st trimester

It had not been easy for me and my hubby during my 1st trimester.

I had spotting for 3 weeks and I had been advised to bed rest for about a month. My appetite was not good and had pregnancy sickness.

I worried quite a lot for little baby because of my past. However I also try to stay optimistic. I am very hopeful to my weekly gynae visits. My baby's heartbeat was detected about 7 weeks.

I could only eat very little only. Bread was the best food for me during that period. For rice and porridge, I could only eat a few mouthfuls and would feel very full. At least, I could eat the whole serving of bread with cheese. Nausea, puked every night and I felt no energy at all. The progesterone medication make it worse. I really slept a lot during that period of time.

Luckily, I had my sis-in-law with me during that time. She was very patient and understanding to me. My weekly gynae appointment were accompanied by her. The biggest achievement which she has done was she prepared dinner every night! I'm really grateful to her.

Back at work, my colleagues were very understanding. I get tired very easily at work and I fell ill with fever during my 2nd week return to work. I went to bed as early as 7.30pm and was able sleep through the night.

There were no outings and shopping for both my hubby and I. I stayed at home and fall asleep very easily. I lost quite a lot weight.

During our 12 weeks NT scan, baby was detected normal. As long as my baby grow healthy and normal, my hubby and I will be very happy and satisfied.

Testing positve

Missed menses for a week liao. So I had decided to do a little urine test using a home pregnancy kit (unknown brand) which I had bought online.

test done on 15-Aug-10
2 lines = Positive!!!

Really happy and excited about it. However, I was still unsure about the accuracy of this test kit. So, I bought a branded test kit from a pharmacy to test again.

Test done on 17-Aug-10

It stated : Pregnant 2-3

Which meant I'm pregnant for 4 to 5weeks based on my last menstrual date! I showed my hubby the results. He was happy and excited too.

But due to our past experience, we had decided to keep this as a secret as long as possible until end of my 1st trimester. We wanted everything to to go as smooth as possible.

Good bye Xiao Cute. U will always remembered in our hearts.

My hubby and and I got know this very special someone when it was 4 weeks old. We don't know what is its gender. It was someone who we had looked forward to see in 9 months time.

William gave it a name while its inside me and its called 蔡小Cute (Chua Xiao Cute). We would call, talk to and sing to Xiao Cute everyday. Our bonding got closer everyday.

However, mummy got spotting every few weeks and had visited the gynae quite a couple of times. Every time she spots, she was told by the gynae to bed stay. Wanting to Xiao Cute to grow well, mummy rested as much as she can and tried to think of every positive things she could.

Every visit to gynae gave mummy many hopes and worries.

• As Xiao Cute was too small at 4 weeks, it can't be seen through normal scan. The gynae told mummy the possibility of etopic pregnancy, which mean that the embryo was implanted outside the uterus.
• On the next visit, the sac could be seen and mummy was very happy that Xiao Cute was growing in the correct place.
• On the 3rd visit, Xiao Cute could not be seen even though the sac was bigger. Mummy was told by the gynae that Xiao Cute was growing very slowly and this was not a good sign.
• Daddy was around on the 4th visit, Xiao Cute was 3 mm (much slower growth than expected) and its heartbeat could be seen but the heartbeat was very irregular. Gynae told us such cases, the foetus have only 50% survival. We had to mentally prepare ourselves.
• The subsequent visit which was 2 weeks later (14-Apr-10), Xiao Cute was not growing at all (only 3.5mm) and its heartbeat could not be seen anymore. Xiao Cute could not survive.

When our gynae broke this piece of bad news to us, we did not know how to respond. We were devasated and it was like losing a part of us. We grieved and cried a lot. Although we did not see and touch Xiao Cute in person. I could understand the feelings of parents who lost their children.

We had to arranged for a surgery to remove Xiao Cute yesterday. The medicine to be taken on the night before the surgery, was a really painful process. My womb cramped a lot and I bled a lot. I know that Xiao Cute would be leaving my body.

By now, Xiao Cute would be around 10 weeks. I wanted thank it for giving me a chance to be in me and the every special moment we had together. Although you are not around anymore, you will always in our hearts and we will love you always.

Family trip to Melbourne 10-Feb-10 to 17-Feb-10

It was the chinese new holiday and William's family had decided to go for a holiday since everyone dun have to work during this period.

We had taken a night flight from Singapore and reach Melbourne the next morning.

Went on the great ocean self drive trip and we stayed 2 nights at Apollo Bay.

This is Apollo Bay.

We also visited the Cape Otway lighthouse along the Great Ocrean Rd.

This is the famous 12 apostle (which counted only 8 left) along the Ocean Road.

The 1st day of CNY happen to be Valentine's Day. William got a surprise rose for me and I brought is rose back to SG. This was the 1st time I hear fire crackers popping! Really loud! There was quite a big group of chinese community in Melbourne.

We also visited the Philip Island where the main highlight is the panguin parade but we can't take pics there. There are also other attractions like Koala conservation centre and Churchill Island.

We are tryong to take a photo with a Koala!

Queen Victoria Market

My furry souveniors to join my sheep from NZ.